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[Dec. 8th, 2011|01:02 am] |
요즘 내 맘을 서술한 노래가 몇 개이나 생겼어...흔한 경험이라서 그런가?
세븐 그 곡은 되게 오래된 곡이었어. 많이 좋아하던 곡인데 옛날에 들었을 때 가사의 의미 전혀 모르고 그냥 멜로디 좋더라..근데 오늘 노래방에서 부르면서 노래 무슨 얘기하는지 알게 돼서 더욱더 좋아했어 ^^ |
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[Dec. 4th, 2011|01:09 am] |
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나한테 작은 힘이라도 줄 수 있는 사람들 왜 하필 볼 수 없겠지? |
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[Dec. 4th, 2011|12:47 am] |
never know that i'll be saying this but im having such a crappy time here... the worst time of my life... its official.... i'm hating most of my time here... i hate it i hate it i hate it... it is partly due to the country, the unlucky and sucky incidents that had happened to me so far.. .n most importantly i think is the company....
Today was the breaking pt man... well, this is not the lowest pt of my life (as that would definitely goes to being pushed into the subway gap and have my leg casted and stuck in dorm for f-ing 1 mth) but i cant take it ... seriously i cant take it anymore... emotionally... i dont know what im supposed to do... with exactly one mth left.. i hate to go back to singapore... where its so boring, and things you can do and explore is limited and facing the reality of having to work hard in school (no lmk too), but at the same time im hating almost every min of my life here as long as * is there... n * is there like 99.999999999% of the time... so fml ttm.
i miss my frens... frens tt wouldnt do these shit to me... frens tt know how im feeling... MH!!! ANN!! LINA!! NAZ!!! SHIHUI!! CHENGYI!! MICHELLE!! CERA!! n etc. etc... hur hur! i miss the ability to tell any one of you how i feel and all the stuffs but i feel so crippled now that my room dun even hav wifi, cos whatsapp is the next best to having a sms convo w u guys...
why m i having such a shit time on sep... hating my life more than ever... hating myself more than ever... i think its just me. why do i feel like the whole world is out to get me... and no one is by my side? ...even if there is, they arent anywhere close? i guess this is just a lesson for me telling me that its wrong to fight for something that's not yours to begin with. Well, i've kinda got the drift since the lowest pt of my life but i guess bad things just have to happen like 24/7 to reinforce this f-ing pt! but pls let the bad things stop... as if looking at the weird bruised patch near my knee that refuses to go away is not enough to make that sink in...
I guess its a good thing that i have a paper to rush by mon....though its not a subject that i'm familiar with but i guess it'd help me take my mind off my issues...but wat abt the day aft tml? T.T
there's no no no no more tomorrow...
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[Sep. 23rd, 2011|12:47 am] |
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다리 아파서 우는게 아니고 마음이 아파서 막 울었어...이런 사람있는 줄 정말 몰랐었어..한 두 명 아니고 정말 많아서 깜짝놀랐고 정말 실망했다...이런 것은 만신창이라고 하지? 곁이 뿐 아니고 속도 마찬가지이다.. |
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[Jun. 15th, 2011|12:33 am] |
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세생에서 가장 성의 없는 생일 선물은 밥 사기이라고 생각한다. 와..정말 열 받네..한번 두번도 아니고 이렇게 자꾸 미루면 차라리 만나지말고 돈이나 줘. 이외에 생일 날 지나간 거의 6개월 됐는데 이렇게 힘들게 만나면 왜 해? 만나기 싫으면 싫다고 하면 되잖아. 그 생일로 인한 흥분 따위 느낌 다 없어졌단말이야..난 이렇게 화가 난 이유는 너들이 분명히 난 지난번에 이것 땜에 삐친 걸 잘 알고 있어도 또 미뤄..이젠 너들의 메세지 대답 안 할게 ..아무리 너들을 위해서 시간을 내도 그날이 다가올 때 날을 바꿔 달란 소리 또 나겠지? 난 무슨 장난감이야? 나랑 놀까 하다가 나보다 더 새롭고 재미있는 장난감이 생기면 날 꽉 차버린다. 다시 미루기만 해...귀찮아 죽겠다.. |
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[May. 28th, 2011|01:57 am] |
하이즈...이럴 줄 알았는데 또 하게 됐어
너들 맘속에서 난 있니? 있으면도 아마 맨 꼴찌인가봐... |
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[May. 28th, 2011|12:44 am] |
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m i crazy if i say i wanna do work now? at least its numbing... |
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[May. 28th, 2011|12:35 am] |
trying to get use to being alone. i think it may not be tt hard aft all... its so tiring to always be the one to start the convo, to get snub, to feel forgotten, the best is to not feel anything at all.
learning the hard way that there's no one better to depend on other than urself. felt the strain frm some of my few closest frenships.. realizing how little frens i actually hav when i was trying to find someone to tok to. n tt i duno them tt well aft all... realizing we're drifting apart despite all those efforts and aft all those talks abt being frens forever... how naive we were.. or rather i was... |
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[May. 19th, 2011|10:50 pm] |
했던 약속 다시 또 생각난다. 난 왜 못 지켜?
(다 국경일 땜에 :( )
이렇게 난 또
끊지 못하고
내 가슴 속에 끝나지 않을 이야길 쓰고 있어
널 붙잡을게
놓지 않을게
끝나지 않은 너와 나의 이야기 속에서 오늘도 in Fiction
지금 난 너무나도 행복한
생각에 이야기를 쓰지만
모든 게 바람일 뿐이라고 여전히
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[May. 16th, 2011|12:33 am] |
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hate wat i'm feeling and seeing now. made my happiness derived frm shopping gone in split sec. 남에게 난 아무것도 아닌가 봐..그 때 친구 한 명도 안 와 줘서 얼마나 슬픈지 몰라. 이번에 출발 할 날이 친구들에게 알려줄지 말지 아직 고민중인데...알려주고 또 아무도 안 올까봐... |
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